Recently Will Smith admitted to considering suicide, on his YouTube account for his six-part unscripted series, “Will Smith: The Best Shape of My Life,” which many fans were not surprised given his history. Having to deal with conflicts from childhood to his marriage life, everything has been on the spotlight and public for everyone to see and judge. Will Smith has a memoir called Will, out now. In it, Smith lays bare painful family secrets, including a traumatic childhood event involving his deceased father, Will Sr., that he states affected him for years to come and he considered killing. In the book, Will wrote about the complex relationship he had with his father William Carroll Smith Sr., who with his mother Caroline Bright, raised Smith and his three siblings in Philadelphia.
“My father was violent, but he was also at every game, play, and recital. He was an alcoholic, but he was sober at every premiere of every one of my movies,… He listened to every record. He visited every studio. The same intense perfectionism that terrorized his family put food on the table every night of my life.”
Will continue to state “Within everything that I have done since then the awards and accolades, the spotlights and attention, the characters and the laughs, there has been a subtle string of apologies to my mother for my inaction that day. For failing her at the moment. For failing to stand up to my father. For being a coward….. What you have come to understand as “Will Smith,” the alien-annihilating MC, the bigger-than-life movie star, is largely a construction – a carefully crafted and honed character – designed to protect myself. To hide myself from the world. To hide the coward.”
Even after his parents divorced, although they continued to have a mutual relationship, Smith wrote that his anger originating from that childhood incident occurred again decades later when he cared for his late father Will Sr., who had cancer.
“One night, as I delicately wheeled him from his bedroom toward the bathroom, darkness arose within me. The path between the two rooms goes past the top of the stairs. As a child, I’d always told myself that I would one day avenge my mother. That when I was big enough when I was strong enough when I was no longer a coward, I would slay him.”
At that minute, Smith remembers contemplating the idea of killing his father. “I paused at the top of the stairs. I could shove him down, and easily get away with it,” he writes. “As the decades of pain, anger, and resentment coursed then receded, I shook my head and proceeded to wheel Daddio to the bathroom.”
After Will Sr. died in 2016, Smith reflected on their destructive relationship and how it influenced him about finding true fulfillment.
“There is nothing that you can receive from the material world that will create inner peace or fulfillment, In the end, it will not matter one single bit how well [people] loved you. You will only gain ‘the Smile’ based on how well you loved them.” He wrote
Check out Will Smith New movie released November 19th on HBOMax.
Based on the true story that will inspire the world, King Richard follows the journey of an undeterred father instrumental in raising two of the most extraordinarily gifted athletes of all time: Venus and Serena Williams.
King Richard stars Will Smith, Aunjanue Ellis, Saniyya Sidney, Demi Singleton, with Tony Goldwyn and Jon Bernthal.
You Can purchase Will Via https://willthebook.com
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